Melb

Its now week 7. course will be finished in week 12. hihi. Im sure to get back in mid july. Im gonna miss melb so much. oh mid semester coming soon. hmm. tot of a roadtrip in sydney. but adam's family prolly coming so I dont want la kacau people. maybe after sem break would be nice. james invited me to go to tasmania. car racing and all. hmm I dont think I'd enjoy tasmania. fahad's having a party at his beach house. if the date doesnt clash I might go. alaaa would be nice if zuhri and adam are available in sydney. kwn melayu jugak yg best. hehehe. well, I think now I just go ahead with james maybe.

must go :
sydney
goldcoast

places I planned to visit (after melb) :
jakarta (with james & albert)
armsterdam (with cousins)
spain (maybe)
koh pah ngan (with the girls)

Bruno mars - grenade

I love this song so much I would listen to it minimum 5 times a day. without getting the song downloaded in my handphone. Im imagining it would be 100th times/day if its in my hp. oh before I forgot. I need to write this down in case I'd forget it. Martin - hello, katty perry - fireworks and bruno mars - grenade.

Back to grenade. I just love love this song coz it shows that woman can be empowerment over man. I feel like Im the girl. so whenever I feel down because of love. this will allow to rethink how I could have been. Im beautiful and smart why do I kept thinking that my life sucks? currently my life is content. although I have no one but I feel that this is alright and Im just stepping into a different Aisyah. A more mature kindda lifestyle. its a different feelings. not saying I have changed. I just forgot how it feels like being dependable. I did everything myself. I no longer feel boyfriend is a need.

Oh yesterday steve (my CLD lecturer) fucked me and james so bad! hahahha
oh james is my best friend here. indonesian murtad. coz he was bret here. just born in indonesia before his australian parents adopted him here.
So steve saw me and him walking to satay shop to meet our other friend waiting. so he was like "owh I saw u both at flinders street. its funny that u guys are sitting here right now" we were like ???. then he continued "u guys are not together are u?" and we were like NO, james said wtf steve?. hahahha AND he said oh thank god. hahahha whats that supposed to mean! hahhaa. poor james. steve said to me "I'll protect u" I was speechless. thats bad steve. prolly to be frank, james is fat and ... ok wtv. hahhaa. its so emberassing coz it was in lecture. like in the whole class. hahhaha. I like hanging out with him coz he's cool. he's not trying to hit on me. thats why Im comfortable and we both can be ourselves. same like fahad. a gay guy. All these people, there are cool and thats why Im still single and loving it.

but this steve! he made me wonder. he mentioned us 3 times on lecture and 3 times in tutorial. he's trying to get something. but couldnt get any answer I guess. hahahah. what do u want to know steve??? u were at striper the other day do u? LOL.

Melb will be such an experience. partly I just want to stay here. I kindda hate Malaysia exclude family and close friends. I just dont want to live in Malaysia nemore. I have nothing there. again exclude family and close friends. eventhough I have friends. I feel empty neway. ehhehe. Im just gonna enjoy melb while it lasts

it was never fun to bump into ur ex. especially not liking what u see

I think this would be the 3rd or 4th time I accidently bumped into him. changkat & sultan. when I first saw his car entering the carpark. my heart dropped and I know this can not be good. like really, new year. pls give me a break. but I didnt want to spoil my night. while I was queing, and then suddenly someone tapped me from behind. ahhh great! its him. I pretend to look surprised. he's with his bodyguard that Im familiar with. so off we go entering sultan.

Im with my cousins. I did a mistake by constantly peeking on him. he's bodyguard tried to calm me down. I pushed him away. he's a bit pissed off. I tend to be aggresive when Im drunk. I did that once to him but prolly because Im still *'s gf the bodyguard didnt dare to fight nor give me I-wish-I-could-slap u kindda look.

I saw * swamped with 3 girls talking and hugging him. he then noticed me and I walked away. I hid myself away from him. I saw him waited at my table and when he's gone I came to the table back. I couldnt help myself for the things I did. I just love him still. and I know I shouldnt.

I was so sad when I bumped into him the toilet I screamed and scolded him like mad. I can be very revengeful person so hugged a guy (my cousin's friend) and accompanied me to the table. * looked pissed off. so he left. after awhile he left sultan without notifying me. my sis said he did came to the table and saw me hugging a guy.

I couldnt help myself for the things I did. I just love him still. and I know I shouldnt.