High

For those who hasnt start smoking weed I urge u not to try. But as for me, I didnt get caught to it on my first try. Note this, getting to ultimate high is a bit difficult to achieve. you have to really know how to indulge the high to be addicted. And when you're high, you endure your problems to run wild into more complex situation but surprisingly providential. You feel like you're floating while daydreaming allowing yourself to idle whole day.

You talk less, because you think to much.
You dont tolerate, because you're happy.
You laugh, because you think into complexity
You work alone, because you have no confidence
You dont care about your bf, because the feeling is greater than love

Lights Will Guide Me Home

I just got into a relationship after been partying and single for quite a while. I must admit, he is different from my previous bf's. We dont have much in common but still we're in love. He's smart and drugs-free. I just hope that he will pull me out of drugs fully. I feel sorry for him. by the time he met me. I was a different person. I wish he could see me when Im at most cheerful person.

Because of that, I also tot that Im not comparable to be with him. because of I stoned I lose the sparks. its getting deemed. But I can still see the light

weed

Hi there. I know my blog is a bit depressing. to tell you the truth I remain myself anonymous because I will use this blog to express my feelings toward my addiction to drugs. one and only weed. I have 2 blogs. No one knows about the existing of this blog.

Reason for the selected title. Im different before I became stoner. cheerful and smart. Problem-free spirit is always attached to me. My ex-boyfriend is a stoner even before we met. I accepted the way he is without getting influenced on taking it. but after 2 1/2 years together, I failed to maintain my perception over weed. Im ecstasy user too, but very random. Back then, I dont see weed gives permanent damage physically and mentally. at one point I consumed weed daily.
During the early period of the drug abusing seems amazing to me. yes, my characteristic changed. more relax in deciding things. I talk less and accepting anti-social behaviour to grow in me. unconciously it pulled my confidence level to crash bottom. I was in the dark even before I knew it.

Now I feel alone eventhough I have my bf, friends and family around. I feel helpless although Im trying. I feel every sorrows were kept in me and when I talk I dont know whats the root of Im feeling like this. I want to cry but for what reason.

The after effect is painful.

Getting stoned is one of the way for me to be ignorant on my surroundings.